Friday, June 24, 2005
I had a horrible day ytd.And it was really very horrendous.This is the first time i did this to my boyfriend.My heart feel sorry.But yet,i guess he deserved that scold from me infront of his friends and the public.Though i think back,i'm just making a shame of myself.But still,it's for my relationship with him,why not?
I've done so much to build up this beautiful relationship,but he's always skimming.I don't mind him skimming as it's his hobby.But see,simple things like giving me a call,he can't even do it.He can simply tell me that he forgot to tell me that he's going to Sentosa.I went down personally to look for him.He didn't know i was there since 4pm till 7pm (when i saw him going home).I was forced not to talk to him.But,i became soft-hearted and i went to him.Then was when everything started going hay-wired.
My family members heard about this,my ladies and my friends.Everyone asked me to give up.There's no point of me doing so much and him doing nothing at all.
I guess that i've to let you go.You were once my baby boy.And now you're free from everything.No one there to complain,no one there to show her love and concern towards you.Maybe there is,but it's definately not me who was once your baby.
But still,i'll be missing you.The things we said to each other.The things we did together.The ways that you once show that you love me and i means a lot to you.Keep these as a memory that will remain in our heart forever.
Tears are rolling down my cheeks every single minute.And i know you hate me cry the most.But you're making me to cry.Boy,i didn't mean to do everything that i've done that show that i didn't show any respect to you.I really can't do anything than these.
BABY,I MISS YOU!
Tell me that this is not the end and there's more than these that we can do.Tell me that i means a million to you.Tell me that you are sorry for whatever you have done and yoy would change.Would these all happen again and start a fresh?
How could this happen to me?I've made my mistakes.There's no way to run.But life still goes on.As i'm fading away.I'm sick of this life.
Sigh.Come back to me one day as WE BELONG TOGETHER!
2:32 AM